Well, as we all know, one of the best excuses for not following your plan = what? Money???? Yes, that's right. That's my story and I am sticking to it....for now clinging for dear life. Ya know what I hate? I hate it when your husband doesn't want to eat your plan too and then that means you get to look forward to making 2 meals at a time all the time. My husband's favorite veggies are the bad ones and I love the green stuff and he wants to have 2 side dishes at dinner (anything less and he says it's a snack, not a meal and that I am trying to starve him...drama king) so that means 3 or 4 side dishes a meal!!! That gets expensive. Especially when I have to cook for 6 people even though there is only 2 of us. He eats 2 servings most of the time and then must have extras for lunch the next day. It's exhausting. How do people with kids do it? I feel like I buy enough food for an army and it barely lasts a week! GEESH!
Anyway I must figure all of this out. In the mean time I saw someone posting about their cosmetic ordeal and it reminded me....I forgot to mention in my recent come-back post that I have been a Mary Kay Consultant since March. I have my own website and at first, I was really going all out and hitting the business hard core and making great progress but I have backed away from it a bit and now I just deal with my regular customers and sometimes stumble across new ones here and there. But anyhoo....I would be totally willing to do a 15% off "Bloggerbuddy" discount for those of you wanting to buy anything. So feel free to take a look and let me know. You can register on my website (free) and place orders there if you like. Make sure you put "bloggerbuddy" in the comment box if you place an order so I will know to apply your discount. There is also a virtual makeover tool on the site that allows you to apply several looks to your own picture so you know what colors you like best. It's very nifty! Feel free to ask me anything.
www.marykay.com/jessicarhoward
Back to the work horse! ugh!
TTFN!
Friday, August 24, 2012
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
Same old dreary...
I am so tired today....I feel pre-coma. This sucks. I have been living off of coke's this week because why? I have a great excuse. Wanna hear it? I can't go grocery shopping for all the healthy stuff until tomorrow afternoon so why not eat like crap all week and continue to drink liquid cocaine? Why not?!
Nice....
Very nice.....
And to top it all off, I failed to mention in my come-back post that I finally have some idea of my paternal family history. See, before I didn't really know my dad's medical history or my grandparents' medical history. Well, I don't know if I ever mentioned the fact that I have always had stomach problems...for the longest time thinking that my nervous stomach stemmed from my anxieties (which it does play a part) but I find out from my grandmother recently that IBS runs in our family and that her father, herself, and my uncle all have been diagnosed with IBS. Now years ago, I researched my symtoms I have had since I was a teenager and everything pointed to IBS but I refused to go poop in a cup to confirm it. So I chalked it up to nervous stomach and anxiety. From what I have read recently about IBS, it goes hand and hand with anxiety and most people with IBS have anxiety too. It all seems to be making since now.
My father died because he was diagnosed with HEP C when he was in his 20's. The HEP C turned into cirrhosis of the liver and from there became metastatic liver cancer that created tumor masses in his esophagus and small intestines. He contracted the HEP C from either tattoo needles or drug usage. He was only 44 years old when he died. So where there is slight relief in knowing that his cancer was not genetic it doesn't go far because I found out that both of my great-grandparents (my grandma's parents) died from cancer. This knowlege only adds to my existing anxiety problems. And now I am almost certain I have IBS and am terrified that it will morph into something fatal one day. So it's been a vicious cycle. I would really like to go see a professional for some guidance on my issues or even medication because they are only getting worse as I get older. My mind races non stop and in one word my thoughts are "unbareable" at best.
Wow, that was a little heavy huh?
Moving on, As I mentioned above my diet is still NOT a diet at all and that must change. The BFF's bday is next month and we both promised ourselves that we would lose at least a million pounds by then (FAIL!). Time is not on our sides so we have GOT TO GET WITH THE PROGRAM ALREADY!!!!!! Dude! Come on!!!!! eek!!!!
Anyway that's my bitching for the day. Until next time.
Nice....
Very nice.....
And to top it all off, I failed to mention in my come-back post that I finally have some idea of my paternal family history. See, before I didn't really know my dad's medical history or my grandparents' medical history. Well, I don't know if I ever mentioned the fact that I have always had stomach problems...for the longest time thinking that my nervous stomach stemmed from my anxieties (which it does play a part) but I find out from my grandmother recently that IBS runs in our family and that her father, herself, and my uncle all have been diagnosed with IBS. Now years ago, I researched my symtoms I have had since I was a teenager and everything pointed to IBS but I refused to go poop in a cup to confirm it. So I chalked it up to nervous stomach and anxiety. From what I have read recently about IBS, it goes hand and hand with anxiety and most people with IBS have anxiety too. It all seems to be making since now.
My father died because he was diagnosed with HEP C when he was in his 20's. The HEP C turned into cirrhosis of the liver and from there became metastatic liver cancer that created tumor masses in his esophagus and small intestines. He contracted the HEP C from either tattoo needles or drug usage. He was only 44 years old when he died. So where there is slight relief in knowing that his cancer was not genetic it doesn't go far because I found out that both of my great-grandparents (my grandma's parents) died from cancer. This knowlege only adds to my existing anxiety problems. And now I am almost certain I have IBS and am terrified that it will morph into something fatal one day. So it's been a vicious cycle. I would really like to go see a professional for some guidance on my issues or even medication because they are only getting worse as I get older. My mind races non stop and in one word my thoughts are "unbareable" at best.
Wow, that was a little heavy huh?
Moving on, As I mentioned above my diet is still NOT a diet at all and that must change. The BFF's bday is next month and we both promised ourselves that we would lose at least a million pounds by then (FAIL!). Time is not on our sides so we have GOT TO GET WITH THE PROGRAM ALREADY!!!!!! Dude! Come on!!!!! eek!!!!
Anyway that's my bitching for the day. Until next time.
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Yes, I am back!
Wow, Ok. I don't even know how long it has been. Something told me to log in today for the first time in ages and seeing all my old peeps still hanging strong out here really brought me back to the blogging days and how it helped keep me stay on track (for a while). I think I will ring back in for now. I will say this....I have totally back-tracked on my weight loss. WAY BACK TRACKED!!!! As in gained ALL my weight back plus a few pounds. Very embarrassing (shoot me now). I literally just completely gave up and ate myself into a marshallow-covered-in-chicken-wire oblivion. I was having all kinds of troubles with my band, got sick of getting stuck on EVERYTHING, was in the process of getting it removed until they slapped me with a quote of $5000 for the removal and I was like ummm....no! So I had a complete unfill about 5 or 6 months ago and everything has been peach pie since (no more stuck! thank God!). And no, the unfill did not cause the weight gain. I have been back at square one since way before the unfill and it SUCKS royal ass.
Just a quick break down of my life lately. I started talking to my father again last year after about 13 years of no contact with him and he passed away this May with cancer. Very sudden and very awful. I have accepted it and am just grateful that I got to know him for a year before he was gone. I believe it was meant to be that I just decided to write him a letter one day and things went from there otherwise the opportunity would have been loss. At least now I have that memory of him.
My husband and I have been working on buying our first home since March of this year. PAIN IN THE BU-DONK! We have jumped through a gazillion hoops and now have a bid in on a wonderful brick home and (fingers crossed) God willing we will get in it.
Work is the same...I am still at the bank...still pulling my freakin hair out. Still letting food be my bestest friend (will I ever learn), still a food addict (it's a disease I tell you!!!) and still crazy. Yes all of those things. It's very frustrating and whatnot and blah blah blah. I'll spare you the complete sob story.
I was just looking at this new blogger layout and saw that my blog had been viewed 18 times today. The most popular post for today was one which involved a photo of me in a bikini last year and me talking about how my boobs were flattened because it was made for a kid. (HA!!!) If only I could go back to that day, kick myself in the arse and say "WAKE UP! You are rockin' this" maybe I wouldn't have tiptoed backwards. Hell, wait, tiptoed? More like sprinted! GEEZ!
Anyway...conveniently enough I have jump started my journey today to lose the weight....once again...for the millionth time...again!!!! Meanwhile, I have gone to pee about 7 times today because I have drank 4 bottles of water since I got to work. No biggy, you say? Well it is a big deal when you consider the fact that I haven't drank a full bottle of water in one day in months. Yes I became a coca cola whore and a sweet tea addict (possibly contributing to 50% of my weight gain). I have also stuck every carb known to man in my mouth on a daily basis. Complete lack of give-a-crap on my part. You know at least last year when I was blogging I may have been back and forth on my weight loss journey but I always came back regularly....I would try and then not and try and then not. But this time around I completely STOPPED. Fully haulted all weight loss efforts and didn't care anymore and now I have fat in places I have never had fat before....more hail damage than ever before....OMG! No lie! It's literally scary to see myself naked. (sighs. hangs head in shame). I see these pictures from last year and could just barf! I thought I had soooo much more to go last year and boy, I didn't know what the hell I was thinking.
But anyway enough pity! I just wanted to say hello to everyone and say that I am back....if anyone has read this whole thing...thank you for hanging in there! haha
Until next time.
Just a quick break down of my life lately. I started talking to my father again last year after about 13 years of no contact with him and he passed away this May with cancer. Very sudden and very awful. I have accepted it and am just grateful that I got to know him for a year before he was gone. I believe it was meant to be that I just decided to write him a letter one day and things went from there otherwise the opportunity would have been loss. At least now I have that memory of him.
My husband and I have been working on buying our first home since March of this year. PAIN IN THE BU-DONK! We have jumped through a gazillion hoops and now have a bid in on a wonderful brick home and (fingers crossed) God willing we will get in it.
Work is the same...I am still at the bank...still pulling my freakin hair out. Still letting food be my bestest friend (will I ever learn), still a food addict (it's a disease I tell you!!!) and still crazy. Yes all of those things. It's very frustrating and whatnot and blah blah blah. I'll spare you the complete sob story.
I was just looking at this new blogger layout and saw that my blog had been viewed 18 times today. The most popular post for today was one which involved a photo of me in a bikini last year and me talking about how my boobs were flattened because it was made for a kid. (HA!!!) If only I could go back to that day, kick myself in the arse and say "WAKE UP! You are rockin' this" maybe I wouldn't have tiptoed backwards. Hell, wait, tiptoed? More like sprinted! GEEZ!
Anyway...conveniently enough I have jump started my journey today to lose the weight....once again...for the millionth time...again!!!! Meanwhile, I have gone to pee about 7 times today because I have drank 4 bottles of water since I got to work. No biggy, you say? Well it is a big deal when you consider the fact that I haven't drank a full bottle of water in one day in months. Yes I became a coca cola whore and a sweet tea addict (possibly contributing to 50% of my weight gain). I have also stuck every carb known to man in my mouth on a daily basis. Complete lack of give-a-crap on my part. You know at least last year when I was blogging I may have been back and forth on my weight loss journey but I always came back regularly....I would try and then not and try and then not. But this time around I completely STOPPED. Fully haulted all weight loss efforts and didn't care anymore and now I have fat in places I have never had fat before....more hail damage than ever before....OMG! No lie! It's literally scary to see myself naked. (sighs. hangs head in shame). I see these pictures from last year and could just barf! I thought I had soooo much more to go last year and boy, I didn't know what the hell I was thinking.
But anyway enough pity! I just wanted to say hello to everyone and say that I am back....if anyone has read this whole thing...thank you for hanging in there! haha
Until next time.
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Monday, December 12, 2011
Run, run, run away!
So the husband got my treadmill on Saturday night and was setting it up when I got home. It's a really nice treadmill. We picked it out together several weeks ago and it's basically a Christmas gift that we both wanted. He wanted the Flex belt for ABS (I told him those things don't work but he insisted they do...). Good for him. We shall see how well that thing just "makes" abs without the heart rate being raised. If it was that easy we would all be supermodels, I say.
So to celebrate the purchase of that demonic contraption I will be learning how to run on...I went out yesterday and got me some runnin' shoes! Yepperz....they sure are purty and pretty darn comfy, I might add. I tested them out last night on the dready (pet name for the demonic treadmill) and it went well...as well as it could go anyway. I mean I was huffin and puffin at .5 speed and 0 incline.....haha Not really....that would be sad. I look up at the husband and say it's time to tape the girls down because I can't run with them smacking me in the face. He said he doesn't ever remember seeing me run in the 8 years we have been together. I can believe it. I hate running. I told him the Biggest Loser contestants can run at like a 7 while they are training and I attempted that. *Note to self....7.0 is no bueno for Jessica at this point in time. I literally almost buckled and slid off. I am SOOOOO out of shape right now. I don't think I have actually worked out for real in several months. Up until last week my two friends and I were walking 4 miles about 4 nights a week. That did wonders for my calves but not much else. I wasn't getting a burn or anything really. I feel fatter than ever...literally. I don't think I have EVER had this much fat accumulated on my body at once even pre-band. Damn damn damn....
So to celebrate the purchase of that demonic contraption I will be learning how to run on...I went out yesterday and got me some runnin' shoes! Yepperz....they sure are purty and pretty darn comfy, I might add. I tested them out last night on the dready (pet name for the demonic treadmill) and it went well...as well as it could go anyway. I mean I was huffin and puffin at .5 speed and 0 incline.....haha Not really....that would be sad. I look up at the husband and say it's time to tape the girls down because I can't run with them smacking me in the face. He said he doesn't ever remember seeing me run in the 8 years we have been together. I can believe it. I hate running. I told him the Biggest Loser contestants can run at like a 7 while they are training and I attempted that. *Note to self....7.0 is no bueno for Jessica at this point in time. I literally almost buckled and slid off. I am SOOOOO out of shape right now. I don't think I have actually worked out for real in several months. Up until last week my two friends and I were walking 4 miles about 4 nights a week. That did wonders for my calves but not much else. I wasn't getting a burn or anything really. I feel fatter than ever...literally. I don't think I have EVER had this much fat accumulated on my body at once even pre-band. Damn damn damn....
Time to get it poppin'
Thursday, December 8, 2011
New Orleans...Bourbon St
Oh yes, I figured while I am on a roll and all with my sharing stuff after my 5 month disappearance...My friends and I just returned from our trip to New Orleans on Monday. It was only a weekend trip but it seemed like it lasted a week. It was a good time as usual. We got lots of cute and somewhat drunken pictures....haha. We went to the St Louis Cemetary 1 and I got pictures of Nicolas Cage's pyramid tomb and Maria Laveau's. Very interesting....Anyhoo
I figured you are all probably just dying to know how I am looking these days (don't get too excited...I'm not) so I am going to post some pictures of me trying on my outfits I bought to wear in NOLA. Here we go...
I figured you are all probably just dying to know how I am looking these days (don't get too excited...I'm not) so I am going to post some pictures of me trying on my outfits I bought to wear in NOLA. Here we go...
Friday Night
Saturday
Saturday Night
Geez!
Hello again....
Well, it's only been centuries since I posted anything. I almost gave up on it all, honestly. I have been guilty of lurking in the shadows and reading some posts every once in a blue moon (not very often actually). I just got depressed reading about everyone's "journey" and realizing that my journey has been put in reverse for a while now. Technically not a damn drop of progress made. I am still in this "rut" in the realm of fat where everyone resembles marshmallows with eyeballs and boobs. I have lost myself for the hundredth time. I am sick of it. And on top of it all, not that I blame anyone at all, I am losing followers too. Oh yes, my number is slowling decreasing. What's wrong with you people? You don't enjoy following someone on a blog that never....blogs??? hahaha Yeah I don't blame you.
Here's a plus in my cards....I am buying a really nice treadmill this weekend with the hubby as an early Christmas present to ourselves. Question is...will have the balls to use it?
Here's a plus in my cards....I am buying a really nice treadmill this weekend with the hubby as an early Christmas present to ourselves. Question is...will have the balls to use it?
Monday, August 15, 2011
Sooo....yeah that's all I got...
Hello everyone!
I know most of my regular followers have probably wondered a few times if I had fallen in a muddy hole somewhere and got lost. Well I have been pretty lost these last couple of months but not so much in the woods as in my own head. I have been meaning to post something sooner but "today" turned into "tomorrow" turned into like 3 months. So yeah. I was keeping up on reading but I dropped that a few weeks ago too. I just haven't been in the mood for any kind of social upkeep really.
But for the sake of staying semi-sane I decided I would at least be fair enough to let everyone know that I am still around. I haven't completely given up blogging....yet. I have found it harder to blog and even read about everyone else with what's been going on the last few months. I did some light reading today and found that several people have come back from blog hiatus with the typical excuse "I have been hiding because I am ashamed". My excuse is the same theme. My last post involved me finally "trying" to get back on track and I am still in the same water only deeper. I have NOT lost any more weight and what's worse than plateauing??? Hmm...that would be gaining all but 11lbs of my lost weight back. So basically it's like I never got the band. I am technically heavier now than I was on the my surgery day. I won't even get into how utterly depressing that is for me. I am not looking for sympathy. It is what it is. Struggling daily with this has become second nature unfortunately. Yes, I know the solution. I know the formula for weight loss, I just can't seem to use it. I don't know what the blockage is, hell, maybe it's sheer laziness. The cycle continues....I eat because I feel fat and I am fat because I eat. How frickin stupid is that? Makes no sense really.
Anyway:
I am putting together a portfolio to start my apprenticeship to become a tattoo artist. It's something I have been passionate about for years (more of a pipedream) and finally I have decided to go for it. I have always been an artistic person whether it be in crafts, drawing, singing, writing, etc. To me, this is a dream job. Something that I could really enjoy and be proud of. And the money isn't bad either. It will take a while to get up and going but it will be worth it if everything works out. Ultimate goal would be to own a shop and rock it out.
I went on vacation at the end of July and got a new tat and my nose pierced... That was fun! What else? Oh remember how the hubby and I were trying to buy our first house? Yeah well that plan is on hold for a while now because his job is basically screwing him over. His boss is a complete asshole and I can't stand him and he is holding the hubby back just to be a jerk. So the hubby is trying to find a new job as well at a different location. So life has just been super these days. Could be worse I know...count your blessings!
Well that's all I have for now. I am exhausted just talking about it. Hopefully I will pop in more than I have been.....Hopefully!
Miss you guys! tata
I know most of my regular followers have probably wondered a few times if I had fallen in a muddy hole somewhere and got lost. Well I have been pretty lost these last couple of months but not so much in the woods as in my own head. I have been meaning to post something sooner but "today" turned into "tomorrow" turned into like 3 months. So yeah. I was keeping up on reading but I dropped that a few weeks ago too. I just haven't been in the mood for any kind of social upkeep really.
But for the sake of staying semi-sane I decided I would at least be fair enough to let everyone know that I am still around. I haven't completely given up blogging....yet. I have found it harder to blog and even read about everyone else with what's been going on the last few months. I did some light reading today and found that several people have come back from blog hiatus with the typical excuse "I have been hiding because I am ashamed". My excuse is the same theme. My last post involved me finally "trying" to get back on track and I am still in the same water only deeper. I have NOT lost any more weight and what's worse than plateauing??? Hmm...that would be gaining all but 11lbs of my lost weight back. So basically it's like I never got the band. I am technically heavier now than I was on the my surgery day. I won't even get into how utterly depressing that is for me. I am not looking for sympathy. It is what it is. Struggling daily with this has become second nature unfortunately. Yes, I know the solution. I know the formula for weight loss, I just can't seem to use it. I don't know what the blockage is, hell, maybe it's sheer laziness. The cycle continues....I eat because I feel fat and I am fat because I eat. How frickin stupid is that? Makes no sense really.
Anyway:
I am putting together a portfolio to start my apprenticeship to become a tattoo artist. It's something I have been passionate about for years (more of a pipedream) and finally I have decided to go for it. I have always been an artistic person whether it be in crafts, drawing, singing, writing, etc. To me, this is a dream job. Something that I could really enjoy and be proud of. And the money isn't bad either. It will take a while to get up and going but it will be worth it if everything works out. Ultimate goal would be to own a shop and rock it out.
I went on vacation at the end of July and got a new tat and my nose pierced... That was fun! What else? Oh remember how the hubby and I were trying to buy our first house? Yeah well that plan is on hold for a while now because his job is basically screwing him over. His boss is a complete asshole and I can't stand him and he is holding the hubby back just to be a jerk. So the hubby is trying to find a new job as well at a different location. So life has just been super these days. Could be worse I know...count your blessings!
Well that's all I have for now. I am exhausted just talking about it. Hopefully I will pop in more than I have been.....Hopefully!
Miss you guys! tata
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Where did funny go???
For some odd reason I decided today to go back to the beginning of my blog (January 2010), which seems like a century ago and read some of my old posts and you know what I realized?
I used to be funny....in a sarcastic, cheesy kinda way but still...funny.
I feel like maybe I have lost that a bit over the past year. Sad? Me thinks so. I also realized that my posts from now compared to then have a similar theme/ring to them which would be "NEVER MASTERING THE LOW CARB WORLD". Seriously...if you are ever bored and would like to be even MORE bored.....just travel back to some of my early posts and you'll see it's literally like a broken record. haha! Also, I realized that I type far too fast because I found so many grammar errors it was ridiculous. Hell, I've probably made some in this post already!
Anyway...I found one post in particular that actually had me laughing a little and figured I would re-post it since I don't have any interesting tid bits to share lately. This is just a piece of it. All of this stuff still "irks" me BTW. haha
I have decided to devise a list of things that irk me. Things that probably wouldn't irk most people and I am trying to decide if I have some kind of mental problem or if I am just a mega-bitch. You tell me. (sigh)
1. The annoying sound of the teller sorting her mail near my desk. I can hear each piece of mail brush the table as they seperate the different kinds of deposits and stuff. IRK!
2. People constantly using the back office bathroom just because it's in a vault! Look people, use the big bathroom! Got news, your poopy is no secret seeing as you just locked yourself in a 3x3 room and took a number 2 and there's a line out of the door waiting for you to come out!!!! No secret you stink!
3. People who constantly ask me "Is it Friday yet?" all week long, all year long. No it's not Friday and here's a tip for ya, if you hate your job that much, get a new one!
4. My peach fuzz on my stomach has gotten darker since surgery so either I am turning into a he-she or I am the new Casper the friendly freakin ghost???
5. Jaw popping gum! No not smacking but popping like some people can chew gum and they make it pop while in their mouth on their teeth! Nails on a chalkboard to my ears! Stop that shit!
6. When someone you work with is on vacation or out sick and everyone and their momma keeps asking YOU if you have heard from them and how they are doing like you keep a journal of their every move! WTH? I don't live with em' people! Quit asking! Or better yet, here's the phone number figure it out!
7. When taco bell goes down totally smooth and I feel like I gained 10lbs in a day.
8. When my toenail polish flakes off of 3 different toes. I hate painting my toenails!
9. When the same damn people ask me every other day, "So how much have you lost?" seriously??? Ya just asked me that yesterday! Do ya think I will melt away overnight chicken head? (that was mean, but damn it IRKS me)
10. And FINALLY, driving! If I had a bazooka I would blow people on the road away (does that sound dirty? hmm). I say all the time I need my own highway named after me that only I can drive on and the world would be a better place! :)
The END.
I am going on my trip to New Braunfels tomorrow toscrape my ass on rocks float on the river. We rented campers for the weekend and will be drinking and having a good ol' time. So expect some picture posts soon (assuming I don't look like a beached whale in them).
Have a great weekend everyone, and oh yeah, thanks for the comments on the bikini post. Appreciate it!
Smooches peeps!
I used to be funny....in a sarcastic, cheesy kinda way but still...funny.
I feel like maybe I have lost that a bit over the past year. Sad? Me thinks so. I also realized that my posts from now compared to then have a similar theme/ring to them which would be "NEVER MASTERING THE LOW CARB WORLD". Seriously...if you are ever bored and would like to be even MORE bored.....just travel back to some of my early posts and you'll see it's literally like a broken record. haha! Also, I realized that I type far too fast because I found so many grammar errors it was ridiculous. Hell, I've probably made some in this post already!
Anyway...I found one post in particular that actually had me laughing a little and figured I would re-post it since I don't have any interesting tid bits to share lately. This is just a piece of it. All of this stuff still "irks" me BTW. haha
I have decided to devise a list of things that irk me. Things that probably wouldn't irk most people and I am trying to decide if I have some kind of mental problem or if I am just a mega-bitch. You tell me. (sigh)
1. The annoying sound of the teller sorting her mail near my desk. I can hear each piece of mail brush the table as they seperate the different kinds of deposits and stuff. IRK!
2. People constantly using the back office bathroom just because it's in a vault! Look people, use the big bathroom! Got news, your poopy is no secret seeing as you just locked yourself in a 3x3 room and took a number 2 and there's a line out of the door waiting for you to come out!!!! No secret you stink!
3. People who constantly ask me "Is it Friday yet?" all week long, all year long. No it's not Friday and here's a tip for ya, if you hate your job that much, get a new one!
4. My peach fuzz on my stomach has gotten darker since surgery so either I am turning into a he-she or I am the new Casper the friendly freakin ghost???
5. Jaw popping gum! No not smacking but popping like some people can chew gum and they make it pop while in their mouth on their teeth! Nails on a chalkboard to my ears! Stop that shit!
6. When someone you work with is on vacation or out sick and everyone and their momma keeps asking YOU if you have heard from them and how they are doing like you keep a journal of their every move! WTH? I don't live with em' people! Quit asking! Or better yet, here's the phone number figure it out!
7. When taco bell goes down totally smooth and I feel like I gained 10lbs in a day.
8. When my toenail polish flakes off of 3 different toes. I hate painting my toenails!
9. When the same damn people ask me every other day, "So how much have you lost?" seriously??? Ya just asked me that yesterday! Do ya think I will melt away overnight chicken head? (that was mean, but damn it IRKS me)
10. And FINALLY, driving! If I had a bazooka I would blow people on the road away (does that sound dirty? hmm). I say all the time I need my own highway named after me that only I can drive on and the world would be a better place! :)
The END.
I am going on my trip to New Braunfels tomorrow to
Have a great weekend everyone, and oh yeah, thanks for the comments on the bikini post. Appreciate it!
Smooches peeps!
Friday, June 17, 2011
Where's my bikini????
Ahh THERE IT IS!!!! LMAO! I don't know what happened to my photo yesterday....probably karma!
Let's try this again!
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Oh yeah, and please excuse the squished boobs...Like I said yesterday, it is an extra large but in KIDS meaning boobless! haha
Anyhoo...I wish I could stay longer and chit chat. Thanks for all of your belated bday wishes!!!! Oh and you are totally right, DRAZ, I should ask Jenny to make me a kick ass header! That would be awesome! :)
Smooches boo boo's!
Let's try this again!
Anyhoo...I wish I could stay longer and chit chat. Thanks for all of your belated bday wishes!!!! Oh and you are totally right, DRAZ, I should ask Jenny to make me a kick ass header! That would be awesome! :)
Smooches boo boo's!
Thursday, June 16, 2011
The Big 25 and some pics!
Hi peeps!
Ok so Monday the 13th was my 25th birthday....(shhh...don't tell anyone ok?) I had a wonderful weekend filled with lots of activities. Sunday, my friends, the hubby, and me all went to the Kemah boardwalk and ate lunch at T-Bone Tom's (featured on Diners, Drive-Ins, and Dives one time) and then on to the Aquarium. For those of you who may not know....I LOVE FISH...err...as PETS not food! I so enjoy going and seeing all the beatiful fish and we got to feed the stingrays again this year. They are like puppies when you have food! Monday, the BFF and I took off of work and had lunch with my mom and a few of my sisters at my favorite Mexican restaurant and before hand the BFF bought her and I a trip to the dry sauna at our tanning salon and we sweated our asses off for a good 40 minutes in that thing. I could NEVER live in the desert.....NEVER!
Here are a few photos:
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| The BFF paid to have a caricature done of us as a bday gift...I love it! |
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| One of the pictures I took at the Aquarium |
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| Another Aquarium picture. Isn't it awesome? They are so pretty. |
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| This is a bikini I bought on Saturday to possibly wear to the river trip next weekend. What's funny is that I felt like it was a bit tight and when I looked at the tag after I took it off I realized that it was an extra large...in KIDS! hahaha I'm not sure how I manage to pose like that every time. It's like I have the unconcious know how of sticking that one leg out and sucking in like no other!!!! hahahaha I sure have not lost weight lately....more the opposite but I am taking a wise man's advice and going "back to the beginning" and starting this journey over again as if I am pre-op again. It's funny because I have only had protein shakes today and plenty of water but I am not hungry. I am very surprised. A little rumble in the tummy but that's about it. CRAZY! Hopefully this can get me back to a good place mentally with the band. We shall see! Ok...gotta fly now...still gotta catch up on my post reading! TTFN! |
Friday, June 3, 2011
playing along...
I figured I would steal this from Holly at Plush Belle. It looked interesting enough! haha
ABC's of Food (surprise!)
A-Apple- What is your favorite? Apples are my least favorite fruit but I would say pink lady is the best.
B-Bread- Regardless of calories or nutrition, what would you like to have a big slice of? Ciabatta roll with fonduta (YUM!)
C-Cereal- What is your favorite? Fruity pebbles...I won't even buy a box anymore because I will eat the whole thing in one day.
D-Doughnut-What kind is your favorite? I really don't care for donuts at all but I would say either a plain glazed or a creme filled
E-Eggs- How do you like yours prepared? Scrambled if it's a whole egg, fried if it's egg whites only.
F-Fat Free- What is your favorite product? Water? haha
G-Groceries- Where do you purchase yours at? Walmart mostly..sometimes local stores
H-Hot beverages- Favorite? Green tea with sugar and french vanilla coffeemate! YUMMO!
I-Ice Cream- Favorite? Never been a fan of ice cream either (how did I get fat???) but if I had to choose I'd say rainbow sherbert
J-Jam or Jelly- Do you eat them? If so what kinds? I USED to eat them. I love strawberry jam and grape jelly
K-Kashi- Do you purchase their products, if so which ones? Yes, and I like the grain and fruit bars
ABC's of Food (surprise!)
A-Apple- What is your favorite? Apples are my least favorite fruit but I would say pink lady is the best.
B-Bread- Regardless of calories or nutrition, what would you like to have a big slice of? Ciabatta roll with fonduta (YUM!)
D-Doughnut-What kind is your favorite? I really don't care for donuts at all but I would say either a plain glazed or a creme filled
E-Eggs- How do you like yours prepared? Scrambled if it's a whole egg, fried if it's egg whites only.
F-Fat Free- What is your favorite product? Water? haha
G-Groceries- Where do you purchase yours at? Walmart mostly..sometimes local stores
H-Hot beverages- Favorite? Green tea with sugar and french vanilla coffeemate! YUMMO!
I-Ice Cream- Favorite? Never been a fan of ice cream either (how did I get fat???) but if I had to choose I'd say rainbow sherbert
K-Kashi- Do you purchase their products, if so which ones? Yes, and I like the grain and fruit bars
L-Lunch- What was yours today? Chicken Diablo at a local Mexican restaurant. It is a piece of chicken fajita, mexican cheese, and fresh jalapeno wrapped in a slice of bacon served on a bed of lettuce. DELISH!
M-Microwave- What is your favorite microwaved meal or snack? Michael Angelo's Cheese Lasagna!
N-Nutrients- Do you like carbs, fats, or proteins the most? DUH! Carbs!
O-Oil-What kind do you use? Olive oil
P-Protein-How do you get yours? Sometimes from protein bars, chicken, pork, beef, and some soy
Q-Quaker-How do you like your oats? With some butter and brown sugar and a few strawberries or blueberries
R-Roasting-What is your favorite food to roast? Beef haha
S-Sandwich- Favorite? Quiznos oven roasted turkey breast with cheddar, tomato, pickle, mayo and southwest chipotle sauce!
T-Travel- How do you handle eating while traveling? I go crazy and eat just about any damn thing I want. Sad, I know.
U-Unique- What is your strangest food combination? plain raw pickles dipped in ranch dressing with saltine crackers (it's a tradition my friend at work and I do almost every Friday)
V-Vitamins-What kind do you take? BAD! I haven't been taking vitamins but when I do I take them I do the chewy flinstones ones, calcium chews, and B12 sublinguals
W-Water-How much do you drink a day? About 80oz on good days
X- X-Ray- If we did a tummy x-ray what foods would we see? Umm...my lunch and I ate scrambled eggs, one sausage patty, and some watermelon for breakfast! I love watermelon!
Y-Youth- What food reminds you of your youth? Spaghetti pie and potato salad and hot water cornbread make me think of my Granny. I loved it when she cooked that stuff. She was a great cook.
Z-Zucchini- How do you prepare it? Steamed or sauteed in a stir-fry! yumm!
Well that was fun! Took longer than I expected but still fun!
As far as updates go...I still can't comment on blogs!!! I am getting stupid pissed about that! On me? Well I am still working on me day by day.
Have a good weekend.
Thursday, May 26, 2011
La dee da!
I figured I would try to post. Perfect timing since blogland is in an uproar from all it's technical difficulties that have been occurring. I have been keeping up on reading but can't comment half of the time so know this, I still love you guys and am trying to let you know this but blogger won't allow it!
Now for an update. I know everyone is dying to know if I'm at goal yet....I mean I must be...it's been long enough hasn't it? Well NOT even close!!! haha in fact I am stuck in quick sand as we speak drowning in seas of lard and yogurt butter with a touch of granola on top. Yup that's me. I have literally gone from carb counting, to calorie counting, now I am thinking about going paleo again like I used to. I AM LOSING IT FOLKS! Certainly, losing it (and I don't mean lbs either).
On a side note: This really has absolutely nothing to do with anything but I thought I'd mention it anyway since I'm doing so great at blubbering so far. I look at my cell earlier and I had a missed call and voicemail from a strange unknown number. I call it back to see what it is and it's a weight loss surgery center in San Antonio asking me if I ever got surgery. Apparently I had called them back in 2009 to price the lapband at that location. HA! Here's how that went:
Woman: Did you ever have a surgery?
Me: Yes, in Feb 2010 in Houston.
Woman: What did you have done?
Me: Lapband.
Woman: And how has that worked out for you
Me: Pause....Pause...longer pause.... It's worked out ok. (Instantly feeling I should play UP the band and make it sound like my results have been marvelous even though they haven't thanks to my head)
Woman: Oh? (in a tone suggesting she would like more than just "OK")
Me: Pause again....I mean I've done fairly well with it. (like being punched in the gut with guilt for lying)
Woman: Have you been following up with your aftercare as far as adjustments go?
Me: Yes......I am in a good place right now. (Not really. I mean I don't need a fill because I am still a little tight and get stuck out of the blue on a daily basis. BUT I think another unfill would leave me ravenous.)
Woman: Well congrats on following through with the surgery and I am glad it worked out for you!
Me: Thanks alot!
Click...
Instantly I thought Oh my gosh, I wonder if they would revise the band for free???? hahahahaha yeah right! Now I know some of you are probably screaming at your monitors right now, "oh you crazy beotch! How you gonna talk smack about the band???" First of all, I am not blaming the band by any means for me not losing. I honestly feel that the weight I have lost (technically 16lbs now that I have gained some back from my lowest) was ALL ME. It didn't have much to do with the band. I know this, because I did it before the band. I have yet to break my lowest low of 169lbs that I got to a few years ago when I did the South Beach Diet for 3 months. In 2 months I had lost 20lbs back then and got down to 169lbs and gained it all back, of course. I haven't seen that number with the band. I think my lowest with the band was 174lbs and that lasted for like a second.
I think my head is too much of a problem still. I don't know if it will ever allow me to truly use the band as the tool it's meant to be. No, this isn't just a phase I am going through because I am discouraged. I have felt this way for a while but was in denial. I didn't want to admit that I basically threw $12,000 down the drain by getting a surgery that EVERYONE close to me told me I shouldn't get. They said that I could do it on my own and I just KNEW without a doubt that the lapband was the answer to doing it. But I think I was wrong. I should've known that I needed to fix my head first. I feel like I am back at square one trying a different diet every other day, obsessed with reading weight loss stories, magazines, books, etc all over again like I used to do. It's like I don't even have the band. And to top things off I think my metabolism is shot for now. It seems that even if I make an effort for a week or so the scale doesn't respond...AT ALL. I think that's why I long for that "new miracle diet" to pop up still to maybe jump start me. I know one thing, I am tired of this cycle.
Anyhoo...it's only taken me like 2 hours to write this with all the interruptions at work. So I will sign off by saying....Too-daloo friends!
Now for an update. I know everyone is dying to know if I'm at goal yet....I mean I must be...it's been long enough hasn't it? Well NOT even close!!! haha in fact I am stuck in quick sand as we speak drowning in seas of lard and yogurt butter with a touch of granola on top. Yup that's me. I have literally gone from carb counting, to calorie counting, now I am thinking about going paleo again like I used to. I AM LOSING IT FOLKS! Certainly, losing it (and I don't mean lbs either).
On a side note: This really has absolutely nothing to do with anything but I thought I'd mention it anyway since I'm doing so great at blubbering so far. I look at my cell earlier and I had a missed call and voicemail from a strange unknown number. I call it back to see what it is and it's a weight loss surgery center in San Antonio asking me if I ever got surgery. Apparently I had called them back in 2009 to price the lapband at that location. HA! Here's how that went:
Woman: Did you ever have a surgery?
Me: Yes, in Feb 2010 in Houston.
Woman: What did you have done?
Me: Lapband.
Woman: And how has that worked out for you
Me: Pause....Pause...longer pause.... It's worked out ok. (Instantly feeling I should play UP the band and make it sound like my results have been marvelous even though they haven't thanks to my head)
Woman: Oh? (in a tone suggesting she would like more than just "OK")
Me: Pause again....I mean I've done fairly well with it. (like being punched in the gut with guilt for lying)
Woman: Have you been following up with your aftercare as far as adjustments go?
Me: Yes......I am in a good place right now. (Not really. I mean I don't need a fill because I am still a little tight and get stuck out of the blue on a daily basis. BUT I think another unfill would leave me ravenous.)
Woman: Well congrats on following through with the surgery and I am glad it worked out for you!
Me: Thanks alot!
Click...
Instantly I thought Oh my gosh, I wonder if they would revise the band for free???? hahahahaha yeah right! Now I know some of you are probably screaming at your monitors right now, "oh you crazy beotch! How you gonna talk smack about the band???" First of all, I am not blaming the band by any means for me not losing. I honestly feel that the weight I have lost (technically 16lbs now that I have gained some back from my lowest) was ALL ME. It didn't have much to do with the band. I know this, because I did it before the band. I have yet to break my lowest low of 169lbs that I got to a few years ago when I did the South Beach Diet for 3 months. In 2 months I had lost 20lbs back then and got down to 169lbs and gained it all back, of course. I haven't seen that number with the band. I think my lowest with the band was 174lbs and that lasted for like a second.
I think my head is too much of a problem still. I don't know if it will ever allow me to truly use the band as the tool it's meant to be. No, this isn't just a phase I am going through because I am discouraged. I have felt this way for a while but was in denial. I didn't want to admit that I basically threw $12,000 down the drain by getting a surgery that EVERYONE close to me told me I shouldn't get. They said that I could do it on my own and I just KNEW without a doubt that the lapband was the answer to doing it. But I think I was wrong. I should've known that I needed to fix my head first. I feel like I am back at square one trying a different diet every other day, obsessed with reading weight loss stories, magazines, books, etc all over again like I used to do. It's like I don't even have the band. And to top things off I think my metabolism is shot for now. It seems that even if I make an effort for a week or so the scale doesn't respond...AT ALL. I think that's why I long for that "new miracle diet" to pop up still to maybe jump start me. I know one thing, I am tired of this cycle.
Anyhoo...it's only taken me like 2 hours to write this with all the interruptions at work. So I will sign off by saying....Too-daloo friends!
Monday, May 16, 2011
10 days since last confession...
Well, yes, I am still around. I have been trying to keep up with everyone's posts. I must admit I have lost interest in posting for myself just because I don't have any good news to share on the weight loss front. And because of that I feel like there's not many topics I can visit without feeling like a loser. (not fishing for compliments, just stating the facts)
I have been going up and down on the scale (mostly up) and managed to gain back 14lbs from my lowest of 175lbs. You do the math and that's where I've been sitting now for the last week or two. I ATTEMPTED for the last month...or two... to start the Primal diet, the South Beach diet, the Atkins diet (see the low carb trend here?) and had an excuse every day of why I couldn't whether it be not having money at the moment to buy the RIGHT groceries from the food list to not feeling it's the right time because of too many events on my calendar. So when I did have the money I would still buy junk, when I did buy the RIGHT foods I still didn't eat it (no time to cook was the excuse on that one). And when I did attempt to eat the right stuff I would make it to dinner and then go crazy and eat like a maniac. Sooo...
I hate to have to admit it for the millionth time, but low-carb just isn't for me. I just can't do it. I know some of you have had great success so far and I am sure I could too if I tortured myself to get through it for a while but I know, without a doubt, that I could never stick to it for the rest of my life and that would just lead to a regain plus more once I quit doing it. So I have gone back to the roots of weight loss, the science which is...
calories in vs. calories out
Honestly, this is just the only way I think I can survive. I MUST count calories. It's the only way I can feel less deprived and less psycho about losing. That's what was working for me when I hit my lowest a few months ago and it can be slow-moving but it's what works. It's one method that's been around forever and has been proven to work many times over. My vice is hitting a plateau and giving up all hope within a few days of it. That's my problemo. The halt. The end. The dreaded plateau. I must learn to push through it. I have to get to where even if the scale stops moving for a while I still hit the ground running. I need to be less obsessed with the numbers and more watchful of the inches and how my clothes are fitting.
I must do something because it has been scary the last few weeks watching the scale climb up rapidly. I could feel myself losing control and literally see myself swelling up back to the size I started at. Sad process, that's for sure. I have been watching my eating for the last few days and lost a couple of lbs but who knows how accurate that is after all my binging for the last weeks. And because of my eating I stopped weighing regularly because of course I didn't want to see what I weighed because I knew it went up. Classic.
(brief pause because I got busy at work)
It is truly so messed up at how lazy I am. I am sitting here eating a Chobani yogurt and a few almonds and can't help but thinking 'gah, I dread having to be committed to a program'. How unbelievably lazy is this???
I dread having to watch what I eat and plug in food to a calorie counter 3 times a day, and I hate knowing that if I want results I have to go home and exercise. Why can't I enjoy the process damn it??? Why can't I just be grateful that I have been blessed with a body that is able to change if I let it? Nope, instead I want to be lazy and stuff myself to the brim and then whine when my body is overrun by fat? Looney tunes, that's what that is.
Ok. I'm done rambling....for today anyway.
I have been going up and down on the scale (mostly up) and managed to gain back 14lbs from my lowest of 175lbs. You do the math and that's where I've been sitting now for the last week or two. I ATTEMPTED for the last month...or two... to start the Primal diet, the South Beach diet, the Atkins diet (see the low carb trend here?) and had an excuse every day of why I couldn't whether it be not having money at the moment to buy the RIGHT groceries from the food list to not feeling it's the right time because of too many events on my calendar. So when I did have the money I would still buy junk, when I did buy the RIGHT foods I still didn't eat it (no time to cook was the excuse on that one). And when I did attempt to eat the right stuff I would make it to dinner and then go crazy and eat like a maniac. Sooo...
I hate to have to admit it for the millionth time, but low-carb just isn't for me. I just can't do it. I know some of you have had great success so far and I am sure I could too if I tortured myself to get through it for a while but I know, without a doubt, that I could never stick to it for the rest of my life and that would just lead to a regain plus more once I quit doing it. So I have gone back to the roots of weight loss, the science which is...
calories in vs. calories out
Honestly, this is just the only way I think I can survive. I MUST count calories. It's the only way I can feel less deprived and less psycho about losing. That's what was working for me when I hit my lowest a few months ago and it can be slow-moving but it's what works. It's one method that's been around forever and has been proven to work many times over. My vice is hitting a plateau and giving up all hope within a few days of it. That's my problemo. The halt. The end. The dreaded plateau. I must learn to push through it. I have to get to where even if the scale stops moving for a while I still hit the ground running. I need to be less obsessed with the numbers and more watchful of the inches and how my clothes are fitting.
I must do something because it has been scary the last few weeks watching the scale climb up rapidly. I could feel myself losing control and literally see myself swelling up back to the size I started at. Sad process, that's for sure. I have been watching my eating for the last few days and lost a couple of lbs but who knows how accurate that is after all my binging for the last weeks. And because of my eating I stopped weighing regularly because of course I didn't want to see what I weighed because I knew it went up. Classic.
(brief pause because I got busy at work)
It is truly so messed up at how lazy I am. I am sitting here eating a Chobani yogurt and a few almonds and can't help but thinking 'gah, I dread having to be committed to a program'. How unbelievably lazy is this???
I dread having to watch what I eat and plug in food to a calorie counter 3 times a day, and I hate knowing that if I want results I have to go home and exercise. Why can't I enjoy the process damn it??? Why can't I just be grateful that I have been blessed with a body that is able to change if I let it? Nope, instead I want to be lazy and stuff myself to the brim and then whine when my body is overrun by fat? Looney tunes, that's what that is.
Ok. I'm done rambling....for today anyway.
Friday, May 6, 2011
Pills?
Anyone having to use appetite suppressants plus the band?????? hahaha
Losing my mind...
seriously...
Losing my mind...
seriously...
Friday, April 29, 2011
Somewhere in the cracks...
I am lurking and hovering, reading your posts but neglecting my own.
Why you ask????
Well I know I haven't posted any pics lately of my recent transformation. So let me begin by saying, life is frickin hard and we all have issues and it sucks, blah blah blah, excuse, whine, blah.
This is a recent photo of me.... I don't know what happened. It's disastrous.
Nuff said.....
Why you ask????
Well I know I haven't posted any pics lately of my recent transformation. So let me begin by saying, life is frickin hard and we all have issues and it sucks, blah blah blah, excuse, whine, blah.
This is a recent photo of me.... I don't know what happened. It's disastrous.
Nuff said.....
Friday, April 22, 2011
Easter treats
Food port ALERT: I made from scratch cupcakes last night. Orange cake with fresh orange zest baked in and zested cream cheese frosting. I colored the frosting pastel green and then used dark green sprinkles for a grassy look. Jordan almonds make the flower on top! It was so fun to make. I really enjoy baking and bringing them to my friends to try. And they really are delicious.
I don't really have much else to say. I am still going through the whole house-hunting thing and between that and work I am just drained to the point of exhaustion. I have been eating a little better but not enough to make a big impression on my weight. UGH> I'll jump on the train eventually. Who knows!
I appreciate your comments on my last post.
@Manda: I make necklaces, bracelets, and earrings of all sorts. I specialize in stones and beads. I started it at first as a hobby for myself because I love wearing unique jewelry but then once people started asking about all my stuff I realized I could probably make extra money by selling. So that's my current venture. Hope it works out.
Well I hope everyone has a wonderful Easter weekend.
tata for now loves!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Homes and nervous breakdowns
Ok. I know I have been MIA for a while. I have been stellar busy. The hubby and I have been jumping through hoop after hoop trying to buy our first house. It's exciting but kicking my ass all at once. It seems for every door that opens another door slams shut in my face. We have gotten our pre-qualification out of the way. For a moment we thought about possibly building but the first time home buyer program we are in won't allow that. So there goes that option. Now I am back to square one. I have been spending hours every day searching and scouring our local towns for decent homes in our price range! What a frickin nightmare! I knew it would be stressful to start this whole process but geesh. It's like I eat, sleep, and breathe HOUSE!
It really doesn't help that hubby has all these stipulations and preferences that he REFUSES to compromise on. The house MUST be a house and not a mobile home, he says. It MUST be over 2000 sq feet. It MUST be on at least an acre of land, PREFERABLY brick. Yadda yadda yadda. My only rule is it MUST have a nice sized kitchen (I want room to cook. I have never had room to cook really good food that I would like to cook.) And preferably a garden tub in the master bathroom. Just give me a moment to pull my mother*effin hair out!
I'm back.
I have also hit rock bottom weight loss wise. I nearly passed out when I saw last week's weigh-in results for the Spring Challenge. I was literally the ONLY person that GAINED!!!!!! And when I started the challenge I thought it would motivate me to be a star. Well I will be remembered alright....for GAINING!!!! haha geez Louise! I don't think I have exercised in almost 2 months and I just keep gaining and losing the same 5 lbs. UGH!
I have one thing to be proud of today and that's the fact that I have not had a Dr. Pepper in almost 2 days. That is a triumph, believe me when I have been sucking the stuff down like it's the spring of eternal life. I told my friends to just hook me up to my own DP IV drip. That would be great. I started my click shakes back up (for breakfast only) last week. I faltered in that over the weekend but got right back to it yesterday. I did well yesterday for lunch and had grilled flounder fillet and grilled veggies but come dinner time I went wacko and ate spaghetti and about 8 chocolate chip cookies in the span of 2-3 hours. Oh AND 2 slices of lemon sponge cake AND I decided to be brilliant and throw some walnuts into some caramel fruit dip and eat that 5 minutes before bedtime at 1am. Woo hoo for me. I was on a frickin roll people!
But through all of the BS I managed to stear clear from the DP. I'll be honest, I could live off of DP. I LOVE it! It's the Romeo to my Juliet, the sand to my sea, the sun to my flowers. It's DEVINE! Why? oh Why must I be addicted to prune juice???? But I have found that since I have stopped drinking it in this long day and a half I have gone from drinking less than one bottle of water to drinking 8. So I guess I must sacrifice my love for the greater good of water. DAMN!
I made a homemade stir-fry last night with stew meat, bean sprouts, zucchini, squash, portabello mushrooms, and water chestnuts. DELISH!!! I had that for lunch today and I made a big enough batch to last me for a couple of days. I think tonight I might have a bit more of that and possibly some eggs and bacon for dinner. I am trying to slowly go full on Primal Blueprint (similar to Atkins). We'll see.
Aww well life goes on none-the-less.
It really doesn't help that hubby has all these stipulations and preferences that he REFUSES to compromise on. The house MUST be a house and not a mobile home, he says. It MUST be over 2000 sq feet. It MUST be on at least an acre of land, PREFERABLY brick. Yadda yadda yadda. My only rule is it MUST have a nice sized kitchen (I want room to cook. I have never had room to cook really good food that I would like to cook.) And preferably a garden tub in the master bathroom. Just give me a moment to pull my mother*effin hair out!
I'm back.
I have also hit rock bottom weight loss wise. I nearly passed out when I saw last week's weigh-in results for the Spring Challenge. I was literally the ONLY person that GAINED!!!!!! And when I started the challenge I thought it would motivate me to be a star. Well I will be remembered alright....for GAINING!!!! haha geez Louise! I don't think I have exercised in almost 2 months and I just keep gaining and losing the same 5 lbs. UGH!
I have one thing to be proud of today and that's the fact that I have not had a Dr. Pepper in almost 2 days. That is a triumph, believe me when I have been sucking the stuff down like it's the spring of eternal life. I told my friends to just hook me up to my own DP IV drip. That would be great. I started my click shakes back up (for breakfast only) last week. I faltered in that over the weekend but got right back to it yesterday. I did well yesterday for lunch and had grilled flounder fillet and grilled veggies but come dinner time I went wacko and ate spaghetti and about 8 chocolate chip cookies in the span of 2-3 hours. Oh AND 2 slices of lemon sponge cake AND I decided to be brilliant and throw some walnuts into some caramel fruit dip and eat that 5 minutes before bedtime at 1am. Woo hoo for me. I was on a frickin roll people!
But through all of the BS I managed to stear clear from the DP. I'll be honest, I could live off of DP. I LOVE it! It's the Romeo to my Juliet, the sand to my sea, the sun to my flowers. It's DEVINE! Why? oh Why must I be addicted to prune juice???? But I have found that since I have stopped drinking it in this long day and a half I have gone from drinking less than one bottle of water to drinking 8. So I guess I must sacrifice my love for the greater good of water. DAMN!
I made a homemade stir-fry last night with stew meat, bean sprouts, zucchini, squash, portabello mushrooms, and water chestnuts. DELISH!!! I had that for lunch today and I made a big enough batch to last me for a couple of days. I think tonight I might have a bit more of that and possibly some eggs and bacon for dinner. I am trying to slowly go full on Primal Blueprint (similar to Atkins). We'll see.
Aww well life goes on none-the-less.
Friday, April 8, 2011
Too short for comfort...
No time...busy day at work...
Hope everyone has a great weekend!
tata for now!
Hope everyone has a great weekend!
tata for now!
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
The Wedding Photos
Ok. I know ya'll are dying to hear about the wonderful wedding. It was gorgeous and my SIL was stunning! I am so proud that I was able to be a part of that moment. Here are some pictures as promised.
We had a great time and the reception was lovely. The cakes were DELICIOUS and yes, I had 2 pieces of cake and some BBQ. I was exhausted by the time we left but it was well worth it.
That's all I have for now..
OH and BTW, the cake I had definitely showed on the scale the next day. I weighed in at 184.3!!!! ahhhh!!! I haven't gotten up that high in months! How frickin lovely!
chunk deuce!
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| My hair |
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| The happy couple and their 2 children |
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| Me |
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I really love this picture. The guy in the cowboy hat is my hubby :)  |
That's all I have for now..
OH and BTW, the cake I had definitely showed on the scale the next day. I weighed in at 184.3!!!! ahhhh!!! I haven't gotten up that high in months! How frickin lovely!
chunk deuce!
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