Monday, June 28, 2010

New Tattoo! Oh yeah

Well we did it! We got our tattoo I was talking about on Friday and I even threw in a little twist and told Mary we should not only get the latin phrase but our zodiac signs to go with it! Have a look see below:

This is me wencing in pain...
Still shrieking in pain....

And finally the product. Gemini sign and the saying
alter ipse amicus-a friend is another self.

And my weight loss trek is on the usual! I guess I am doomed to stay in the 180's for the rest of my freakin life!!!! All thanks to my non-existent mental capacative ability to stop stuffing my face. (not sure if capacatative is even a word but oh well, A for effort right?) I ate like crap all weekend. Mexican food here, chips and dip there, and all kinds of devil food! I only have myself to blame. Oh balls!

Friday, June 25, 2010

BYOC...holla! hehe

Well hopefully today is better than yesterday, that's all I gotta say...oh and this too:

1.This comes from my post yesterday about me bragging that I can still wear the same earrings I wore in high school….got me to wondering…how many piercings do you have? (the ones you can tell us about anyway – *wink wink)

I have a total of 10. I have 3 holes in each ear lobe, 1 cartilage on my left ear, 1 tragus on my right ear, my tongue and my belly button. And I used to have my nose pierced but I got bored with it and trying to cover it at work so I let it close up. Fun while it lasted though.
2. I’m asking this one because I’m getting another tattoo soon…and even have plans to get one of a lizard – my little Draz – because this blog and you all have become a major part of my life. Anywhoozle – how many tattoos do you have? If you have none and wanted to get one – what would it be?

I have a total of 6. See below for pics and meanings of each:
This is my "tramp stamp" on my lower back. It's a rose and tribal. This was my very first tattoo and I was 18 years old. I have a love for roses and butterflies. My Nanny and my Granny did as well and that was always something that connected us.

This was my second tattoo, a friendship tattoo that Mary and I got together. Mine's on the top of my left foot and hers is a butterfly on her right foot because I am left handed and she is right-handed so we got them on our strong sides. I chose to make the flower blue because...well I love blue. So you will see that trend from here on out! hehe

Tat#3: Butterfly on my lower left stomach. This one is probably one of my favs. Like I said I love butterflies and there's the blue again!

Please ignore my hairy legs and the huge pores! This is my fourth and it symbolizes the term "Every rose has its thorn." Which is what the black swoopy thing is...a thorn. I love the song by Poison AND it applies to my life in many ways with my husband who I have been through ups and downs with. Bittersweet for pain lies in all beauty.

Number #5: My eyeliner is tattooed on both top and bottom lash lines on my eyes.

My 6th but not my last: Clovers on my right foot and I got it for my Irish pride. Yes, I am part Irish and my Mom wanted me to get a tattoo with her...AGAIN so she offered to pay and I chose this. I am proud of this one too.

My next tattoo is coming up as well and it's an addition to my friendship tattoo that Mary and I got on our feet. We are going to add the Latin phrase "Alter ipse amicus" in cursive circling the tat. It means "A friend is another self."

3. If you’ve ever suffered from a weight-loss plateau, what’s your best advice to get past it?

Well I am in one now. I guess the obvious answer would be to either cut a few more calories or up the exercise. Sometimes that is difficult but that's usually the answer. Unfortunately I am too damn stubborn for that, although I completely intend on kicking my own ass into gear on this. I gotta do it!

4. This is a repeat. I liked last week’s challenge for BYOC and I saw a lot of people this week follow through on the promise they made last week. You pick one thing for just one day next week that you want to do….and mentally doing it for the one day can totally jump start more successes. And I feel like I can do anything for just one day.

I am going to challenge myself to get into the 170's by next Friday and I have already started drinking 100oz of water a day the last 3 days and I want to continue that! I am soooo ready!

5. Repeat *make someone a Superstar* question – what's your favorite blog or comment of the week?

I am going to say Amy W. for her VLOG on how she's been. I am glad that she specified her reasons for her choice to take a break and be single for a while. It was an eye-opener in a way. I am glad she explained that.

Well that's all for now, folks! Hope your weekends bring you lots of joy and excitement. Mine probably won't but hey I guess I will just have to live vicariously through you!

Monday, June 21, 2010

Quit Monkey'n Around!

Happy New Week people! It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood, beautiful daaaaay!!!! Why am I so chipper you say? Well, I'm not! I just thought I would try to sound chipper and obviously it's like poison rolling off my lips. I know I know, I am so "glass half empty" right now! I hate being so damn cantankerous all the time but crapola! What can I say??? That's me! Grrr...

So I am debating on whether or not to get another fill. I have been having the whole stuck pain after the first few bites of every meal and this morning I even had it when I drank my hot tea (highly unusual) and the weather is clear today so it's not the barometric pressure. But unfortunately this is not preventing me from eating anything and once the initial pain goes away I can eat, eat, eat, which is where the fill would come in because I know I shouldn't be able to do this but I am afraid of another fill for 2 reasons:
#1: I am already at 7.5cc's in a 10cc band and I feel like I am so close to 10 what if I get another fill and it doesn't work???? I am so afraid I will be topped off at 10 and still eating like this. Then what? I will have had this surgery for nothing and have inevitably been one of the poor souls who worked their way around the band and failed it!!!!!

#2: I fear even the slightest fill will be too much and I will be miserable and unable to eat anything and have to get an unfill eventually. I DO NOT want an unfill! I know it's common and happens all the time but I don't want to do it! But my biggest worry is the not being able to eat part. Because I already get soooo frustrated when I am soooo hungry and it hurts to eat. I could just cry sometimes.

So of course, my depression kicked in......and I was bad...AGAIN! Taco Bell bad! When ya'll have been stuck in the in-between like I am did you get a fill or ride it out????

I have got to do right. If I don't get to the 170's and I mean soon, I am going to lose it, as in, my mind!

Friday, June 18, 2010

BYOC....finally :)

A one, a two, a one, two, three!

1. If your heart had a singing voice, whose would it be?

Gosh that's a tough one just because I love to sing and I have lots of favorites. I guess it would be Reba. I love her music and her old stuff still gets me.
2. What is your most disgusting habit?

Don't barf....but I have huge tonsils with all kinds of nooks and crannys in them and sometimes food gets stuck in said nooks and crannys and basically turns into these little white balls of shit-smelling gunk! Well I can always feel it when they are there and I will use my index finger and push on my tonsils to get them to squeeze out and then spit them out. It is gross for sure but it has to be done otherwise infection could set in. It's kind of like squeezing a blackhead. Yup! 
Are you barfing yet???? hahaha
3. Carmen and I were talking about Chicago and our fears...for those of you going (and those of you not you can answer as if you were going)...what is your biggest fear?

Well, unfortunately, I can't go but if I were my fear would be not meeting everyone's expectations of what they think I am like, not being able to look people in the eye for more than 3.2 seconds without feeling awkwardness and self-conciousness. Weird huh?
4. This isn't so much a question but a challenge. Name one thing you will do for just one day next week in the name of health and commit to it on your blog and to us.

I will say Monday....I will limit my carbs to almost nothing and have a protein and veggie at each meal instead. (Gosh that's hard for seriously!)
5. Whose blog or comment stuck with you the most this week?

Well I have been trying to catch up on my blogs this week so I will say EVERYONE is a fav. this time. :)
Well that's it for now, have a super duper weekend! Sunscreen people!

Where did BYOC go????

Ok. Maybe I am posting a lil early today but damnit, where is BYOC???? Draz is slacking? I don't believe it for a minute! So I am considering this an "in-between" post. A short response to yesterday's comments and then I will wait for BYOC to arise!

So to answer some of your theories about my fatigue issues.

#1: NOPE, not pregnant! For one, I have PCOS and fertility issues. For two, I have been on birth control pills for like 7 years and unless they all of a sudden stopped working, then this theory is out!

#2: Anemia, well ya know I was told a few years ago by a doctor whom I was seeing for a weight loss program (go figure!) that my iron count was a tad on the low side but not enough to be anemic. He did prescribe me some iron pills to try but I never took any of them because I was worried about iron overdose. I guess anemia is a solid possibility especially now since I am eating less than usual. But it's just funny to me how it has "all of a sudden" become a problem. Like why now??? ya know?

#3: Vitamin Deficiency: This is also a possibility. @Sandy Lee, yes I take my vitamins every single day. I NEVER miss. I am used to this routine thanks to taking my BC for so many years. I take a chewable multivitamin, B12 sublingual liquid, and calcium chews on a daily basis. And I am actually going to buy some flaxseed oil today to start taking daily.

Could it be that I may not be eating enough protein? I mean I eat more meat now than I ever have but it's not very much. I have said it in a previous post that I was vegetarian for over a year a few years ago and I have never been a big "carnivore" hehe. But you would think if I could go over a year with no meat and my main protein source was beans and legumes that it wouldn't be a problem now that I am eating meat. Heck who knows. Last night was better. I stayed up the whole time (no nap time) and I felt fine.

I forgot to mention that my husband is working nights this month so by the time I get off of work and get home he is already gone and the only time we see each other is when he gets home in the morning but I am still sleeping. So by the time I wake up he is already asleep. It absolutely sucks!!! So it could also emotional fatigue because I am very lonely when he works nights. Although this fatigue doesn't seem emotional.
Your guesses are as good as mine, though. If it doesn't improve I will go get some blood work done!

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Bang, bang, bangs!!!

Well I finally made the leap bangs!!!
I haven't had bangs in years upon years and I wanted to do something different with my hair to compliment 25lbs lost! :) I always thought bangs weren't for chubby faces but I kinda like it! Whatdya think? Be brutally honest, I can take it. I promise I won't break down in sobs if you tell me my face looks like a can of cinnamon rolls that exploded! No really, I won't! In case you haven't figured it out, I am slightly on the fence about said bangs and I go back and forth on whether I like them or not. Appreciate your opinions, as always!

Another thing, I have been a naughty little biah, eating whatever Satan throws at me like....Taco bell, giant stuffed baked potatos, macaroni, chips, basically all food of the devil! I figure foods that make us fat must be from hell, don't you agree? That's why they are so tempting! Yeah, I am trying to decide if I want to get another fill soon or if I wanna wait it out. I have stuck pain daily, even when I am eating good and I PB'ed for the first time the other day. So I am not sure. It's like half the time I need a fill and the other half I don't. What to do...?

Also, I wanted to touch base and see if anyone else has experienced the following since being banded:

*Extreme fatigue upon waking in the morning
*Fatigue throughout the day
*Fatigue after eating meals
*Inability to stay awake at work
*Cat nap has become a dinosaur nap (3 hours or more)

Why do I ask? Well because I am experiencing all of the above and it is freaking me the hell out. I feel that something is just "off". The last couple of weeks I have been extremely tired. Tired all of the time. When I wake up in the morning I feel like I've been hit by a truck. It takes a good 30 minutes to feel "awake". Also after lunch, I feel fatigue hit me like lightning and there has been a couple instances that I fell asleep at my desk for a millisecond (this is unusual). Then whether it's a workout day or not I will eat dinner and flop down on the couch to watch my shows and within 30 minutes I feel exhausted!!! I can't keep my eyes open and I pass out and don't wake up for hours. Then I wake up just long enough to take a shower, feed my pets, and I am back to bed for the rest of the night. It's like I am sleeping the majority of the night away. Usually I have plenty of energy at home and I will do chores, watch tv until about 11pm sometimes midnight and then head to bed and now I can't get through one movie/episode of anything before I pass out!

Anyone else dealt with this? I don't wanna go to the doctor for this. The last time I had fatigue issues a few years ago the doctor did a blood panel and everything was fine and he suggested that I diet and exercise!!!! Got that covered now so what's the problem?

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

My Bday, Bikini photos, and very FIRST PB!!!!

What a weekend! So I have much to tell, hopefully the shorter version for your sake! hehe Ok so Sunday was my 24th birthday (yuk) I hate aging. Anyhoo I had a great birthday weekend for the most part. Friday night I hung out with a bunch of friends at Mary's brother's house. We drank some and I had my fair share of Crown Royal, yup bad idea! haha I was sick as a dog that night and the next day! So we woke up on Saturday and went and had lunch at Cracker Barrel (I love it there). I had the meatloaf with mac and cheese, green beans, and fried apples! No I couldn't eat it all but I wanted to! :) Then we left there and went out on Mary's brother's pontoon boat. We swam for hours and finally left there and went back to her brother's house again to hang out and have some drinks (again!). I didn't drink much though just a little moscato. Then Sunday Mary and I met my Mom and stepdad and some of my sisters at a seafood restaurant in town.

I got lots of nice presents from them and from Mary. Some friends from work pitched in and got me a $90 gift card to Ross. I am going to save that until I lose some more weight though. The hubby bought me a wii and I bought The Biggest Loser game and Super Mario Bros. yesterday for it! Lots of fun! And let me tell you, that wii kicked my ass on Saturday. It came with wii Sports and wii Resort Sports and I played one round of each game and oh my gosh! am I so sore all over. Great workout and sooo much fun!

Next on the agenda...I bet ya'll are chomping at the bits to see my so-called bikini pics that I mentioned in the title. Well I bought a bikini on Friday night to possibly wear to go swimming on Saturday. And then Mary bought me a bikini for my bday. So I am taking a deep we go:

This is the one I bought on Friday. It's lime green and brown.

This is the green bikini Mary bought me. It's really pretty material
And here's a funny, it's the green version of Drazil's hot pink bikini!

Now for the hardest part....the butt!!!

I zoomed in as much as possible...ugh I was really worried about
how my ass looked in this thing.

Now....for my first PBstory! It happened today! Yesterday when I ate lunch I had a chicken salad sandwich and it was the worst stuck pain ever!!! I thought I might get sick so I rushed to the bathroom and the pain went away. I guess moving around dislodged it. But then today at lunch I had about 3 bites of my food and I felt that damn pain again and I sat around for like 5 minutes turning and beating my chest and back and stretching hoping it would stop. It was the worst so far. And I decided to walk to the bathroom again like I did yesterday in hopes that it would fix it and I was halfway to the bathroom and my mouth started watering like crazy and I knew I was gonna be sick. I barely got the bathroom door shut and turned around over the potty and bam! I opened my mouth and up it came! (TMI?) I was relieved that Mary was right about it not being like normally throwing up or vomiting. There was instant relief and I felt just fine. I ate most of the rest of my food with no problem! CRAZY! I dreaded this and it wasn't too bad. It's the stuck pain that sucks soooo very badly.

Anyhoo...well that's it for today. Amazingly I didn't gain a bunch of weight over the weekend, I actually lost 2lbs. Woo hoo! I just wish I would get to the 170's already!

Friday, June 11, 2010

Good Ideas and BYOC!

First, thanks Drazil for your wonderful idea about planning. I have half-assed planned it out before but I think the whole like dry erase board plan for the week is a great idea and I know it would save money because my lack of planning leaves me buying lunch at a different restaurant every day and sometimes dinner too and I spend like $20 a day on that!!!! Sad, I know. And I hear ya ladies, I gotta get it in gear. I have done fairly well today with my blueberry oatmeal and grilled flounder for lunch! :) So far so good.

Now time for BYOC:

1. What was your first pet?

The first I can remember well was my rotweiler puppy named Harley (after Harley Davidson). My mom and stepdad got him for me when I was about 7 or 8. And he was a ball of fur! The cutest thing ever. He ended up becoming my stepdad's dog though because he got too big for me at my Granny's house and he ended up living to be like 7 or 8 years old until he got sick and died. It broke my stepdad's heart.
2.  When did you lose your virginity?
I was 17 with then boyfriend, now husband! hehe Fun fun fun! Those were the days!
3 & 4 – I’m combining these two cuz this answer could be long. A follower (thanks Steph) asked if I could ask what a daily meal plan looks like for each of you – out of curiosity and out of possibly learning new foods to try.
Well, hehe! Let's see...this should be interesting because the only thing that is outlined for me daily is my breakfast. But on a good day this is about right:
Breakfast: Hot green tea, 1 tbsp of coffeemate creamer, 1 splenda
Maple and brown sugar oatmeal (recently started adding a handful of blueberries)
Lunch: Grilled veggies, grilled flounder, sm stuffed baked potato
Dinner: Leftovers from lunch
Now let's see what Jessica eats on a BAD day (like the day before yesterday!)
Breakfast: same as above
Lunch: Fried steak fingers (2) and cream gravy, ketchup, ranch dressing for dipping, steak fries, and a piece of buttered toast
Snack: 2 snack size almond joy candy bars
Snack: 1 slice of banana nut bread
Dinner: 2 ground beef and cheese enchiladas, refried beans, and mexican rice
Dessert: 1 slice of banana nut bread (different loaf....ha)
Dessert: Jello mousse cup
Dessert: Pulparindo (mexican candy made from tamarindo fruit)
Yeah, really frackin ridiculous! So hopefully I can at least be an example of what NOT to eat!
5. Repeat question: What blog or blog comment stayed with you or stuck with you the most this week and why?

Well Die[t] With Me had an interesting post about using supplements and I actually learned some things reading I had NO idea you aren't supposed to take multivitamins and calcium supplements at the same time of the day because something in the calcium reduces the absorbtion of the multi-v. Yeah and I have been taking these together since surgery! Figures!
Weight update: I weighed today and am down to 182.6lbs. Not sure how the H my weight is fluctuating by almost 2lbs each day. Water???? Gotta be.
Have a great weekend. My bday is on Sunday! The next time I write a post I will be 24. Woopty doo!

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Hells Bells...grrrr

Short note: Apparently my eating habits from the last couple of days finally caught up with me! Yup I stepped on the scale and gained a WHOPPING 1.2lbs bringing me to like 184.0!!!!!! Damn, damn, double damn! I am sooooo frustrated dudettes and dudes! So question: My buddy at work is always telling me that if you eat good for a couple of days and then eat bad for a couple of days then the eating bad days don't show up on the scale til a few days later. Like it takes your body a couple days to process the bad stuff you ate and to pack on the pounds. Is that true???? Sure seems like it!

That is all.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Italian Food Porn!

Glad you all enjoyed Who-gives-a-frack-day! hehe Sometimes I say frack instead of the other.....yeah....sometimes.

Alittle sunshine today...not much though. Band isn't too tight today. I decided to add some yummy blueberries to my maple and brown sugar oatmeal this morning and it was really good. I read that blueberries are really good for your metabolism and they help stabilize the effects that carbs have on blood sugar. :)

And though breakfast was a triumph...lunch..well...not so much! A new Italian restaurant, Fratelli's, has opened in town and everyone wanted to try it. So I went and got menus and brought them back to work to check out and oh my goodness! Talk about tempation....they have everything I absolutely adore in the world of pasta from manicotti, lasagna, baked ziti, chicken alfredo, ravioli, basically in pasta dish ending in a, i, or o. Yeah. So I tried to be good and I ordered the eggplant parmigiana and Mary and I ordered some fried calamari to try out and split. The lunches came with a side salad and gorgeous butter garlic rolls. I ate one part of the eggplant (very tasty) and I got rid of my spaghetti and didn't eat any of it. I ate quite a few calamari pieces and 1 tiny bite of a roll. Saved the rest of the eggplant for later. Then it happened....

That guilty feeling I get when I feel I have eaten poorly. Then my all-or-nothing kicks in and poof, today becomes another who-gives-a-frack-day. So I went ahead and ate that slice of banana nutbread that a friend's mom bakes and brings to work for everyone. Boy, was it delicious. Then I got snacky feeling and went down to our breakroom and got a package of vanilla creme cookies from the vending machine and ate all but one of them. Now my mind is reeling thinking about what gosh awful food I will end up eating for dinner since "today is messed up now". I have got to get a grip people! I just hope it's sooner than later. Some some miracle, I managed to lose about a 1lb in the last 2 days of eating pure crap! I did manage to get in a pretty good workout yesterday, maybe that did it. All I know is I have to try harder to get my eating under control or I am gonna lose it!!!! Straight jackets aren't flattering at all, IMO so yeah, I need to get on the ball before insanity takes over.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Rainy Days!

Rain, rain, go away, come back another day!
Usually I like the rain, but not lately. It has been raining every frackin day and my band is squeezin the life out of me thanks to that! Ugh!
I don't have much to chit chat about just wanted to drop by and say..... Heeee-ayyyyy!
A sweet blogger left me a comment on my post from yesterday asking how in the world I consumed so much food at Golden Corral on Sunday if I have the band.
Well unfortunately I didn't specify that each thing I listed was literally a bite or two. No HUGE servings. So probably about 2 cups of food total (maybe a tad more) but believe me I was very full after about a cup of that but I just kept going. Good way to stretch my pouch huh? Stupid me! Sorry for the confusion. The band does lessen the amount of food you can eat but you can STILL overeat if you choose to deal with the pain that comes with it. I can't believe I haven't learned yet. But technically this last fill is the only fill that has given me this kind of restriction and I honestly am starting to think that I am incapable of a PB. Mary has no problem PB'ing. She gets that stuck/pain feeling and goes to the bathroom, up it comes, and she's good to go. NOT ME!!!! I just sit and deal with that sharp pain that hurts so bad sometimes I am afraid to breathe. She seems to think that maybe I just have no gases/air beneath the food to thrust the food up. But really? I don't think that's it. I have even tried to PB to lessen the pain and nothing happens. I have never been good at throwing up though. It doesn't usually come naturally. Who knows!

But today is a "Who-gives-a-frack-day". I was already bad and ate a couple breaded steak fingers, 1 piece of toast, and steak fries with cream gravy, ranch, and ketchup for lunch. I like a variety to dip my food in. I ate waaaaay too much AGAIN and was very full. I hate myself for doing that crap. I just know on my next visit to the doc they will be like "hey cracka, your band slipped thanks to you stuffing yourself! Way to go!"
Crap, what's wrong with me????

Monday, June 7, 2010

Just call me Dracula! hehe

Happy Monday peeps! Thx for the comments on my BYOC Friday post. Draz, you crack me up! I am just tickled pink that you would enjoy carrying me around in your purse.....although I would feel sorry for your shoulder! hehehe I am proud of that picture! :)  Oh and HELLO! To my new followers. Thanks for tagging along on my journey. Hope I don't bore you tears. :P

Well I will admit that I backslided a lil over the weekend. Not too too bad but still. I snacked instead of planning things smoothly. So I ended up eating Mexican candy and munching on tuna and crackers and tostitos scoops and salsa con queso dip. We made shrimp, beef, and chicken shish kabobs on Saturday night and I had eaten so many damn chips by the time they were done I only ate like 1 skewer because I was full. (Smacking myself) ouch!

Then yesterday Mary and I were gonna head over to Golden Corral for their delish buffet and then hit the mall to walk around and burn some calories off and what happens???? SIDE SWIPED! Yup....some psycho b*tch ran into Mary's truck on the interstate. No we are not hurt and yes the truck has a big dent in the driver's side all because the stupid girl fell asleep behind the wheel! CRAZY! And of course I was ready to kick her ass and jumped out of Mary's truck like a bat out of hell to see the damage and possibly to do some beat down but the girl was chill and didn't say much. Thanks to all the excitement and my adrenaline pumping when we got to Golden Corral I ate carb after carb after carb including mac and cheese, roast and potato, fried popcorn shrimp, cold pasta salad, black eyed peas, candied yams with marshmallows, etc! Then as I was about to hork my guts up I some how managed to squeeze in 2 bites of molten chocolate lava cake, 1/2 of a cherry coconut macaroon, 2 jelly beans, and 2 bites of watermelon!!!!!!!!! But believe me, I regretted it!!!! Oh my gosh, did I regret it. I was in pain for 2 hours at least. And I have certified that my band pain is definitely worse when it's about to rain/raining! It def gets tighter. And to make matters worse I bought some fresh bing cherries at the walmart last night and ate 1/2 the bag late last night. They are addictive. So there's a pound of sugar I didn't need! So needless to say I weighed this morning and gained 2 lbs. I actually reached 181.2 on Saturday morning and jumped for joy cuz that made my 25lb loss but as soon as it went!

And long weekend story short: Friday Night we went to the rodeo and saw a couple bands and hung out with some friends, had fun! Saturday we went out on the boat and swam a lil bit. And of course my super pale skin got a lil burned regardless of the hat I wore, sunglasses, and umbrella! hehe I am like a vampire. Allergic to sunlight...ugh Here are few pictures from the weekend.

Me and Mary drinking margaritas in a bag! hehe

My buddy Jessica and me...(there's a Jessica around every corner!)

Me, Cayla, Mary, Nikki, and some girl named Megan (I think)
sweating like pigs in the hot summer night! It was HOTTTT out there.
My gosh Texas humidity sucks! :)

Friday, June 4, 2010

BYOC and full body picture!

1. If you could live anywhere in the world - where would it be and why?

Hawaii or Figi....because I love tropical places and who wouldn't want to live somewhere that looks like paradise and drink froma cocunut all day?

2. How old were you when you got drunk for the 1st time?

I was 14. A good friend of mine came over to spend the night and I went to the kitchen and snuck an entire bottle of McCormicks vodka into my bedroom and we drank half of the bottle mixed in eggnog and the rest of the bottle straight! And boy were we DRUNK! She got sick and threw up all night and that's when I realized my tolerance was high! hehe bad me!

3. What was your favorite toy growing up?

Cabbage patch kids dolls and I had a holly hobby horse that bounces when you are on it!

4. What's your favorite season and why?

Spring....not too hot, not too cold and flowers and trees come back to life!

5. Repeat question....which blog or comment spoke to you or stuck with you the most this week?

Drazil for revealing herself...FINALLY! Nice to meet ya, girl! :)

New NSV:
One of my bosses brought a bunch of clothes today slacks and shirts. Size 12 slacks! They are guess what? LOOSE!  YAY! Here's a picture of me in one of the shirts and slacks from today:

Have a great weekend!

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

13 weeks Post Op Scar pictures!

Thanks for the comments on yesterday's post everyone! Although no one really knew what to say about my pondered thoughts! I was hoping one of you experts out there would have busted out a perfectly logical explanation for my findings, but no luck! And poor Sandy Lee....unfortunately I DO still have my scars from surgery! It's just in the belly ring photo it didn't show. So it made me realize I haven't posted a photo of my incisions for a while! So here they are in all there crappy glory! My stomach looks swollen today too.

Also, I forgot to mention that I had my very FIRST stuck episode on Monday and lemme tell ya, it was AWFUL and PAINFUL. I ate a piece of BBQ chicken (the skin) that my mom had cooked for Memorial Day and then a tiny bite of steak and then a bite from a mini corn on the cob. Unfortunately like a dumb dumb I took all of these bites basically at the same time and then chewed for a while. I felt a little twinge in my chest (same pain I feel with the first bite of everything I eat) and didn't think much of it because that always happens with the first bite! NOT THIS TIME....the pain just grew and grew and I felt as though I couldn't swallow or breathe really. So I went to the bathroom hoping to PB (have never done that either) and tried to and made all the motions etc and....nothing. No PB just stuck, stuck, stuck and immense pain that hurt so damn bad it had me in tears and terrified. That's some scary sh*t! I punched my chest and then coughed really hard to see if I could dislodge whatever of the 3 no no's that I ate was stuck and after about 5-10 minutes the feeling passed. Needless to say I was too scared to eat anymore of that plate!

Strange though because I have been having that stuck feeling alot more often this last weekend. I ate a baked potato last night (I know, I know, BAD JESSICA!) and I figured hey, it's mushy it should go down smoothly but nope! I had that stuck pain a few times eating that too (only lasts seconds each time though). Maybe I irritated my band. I have no trouble eating my oatmeal for breakfast at least! I guess the trick is chew, chew, chew!

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Zillionth times a charm?

Well first off, my Memorial Day weekend was decent. We stayed pretty busy...unfortunately not busy enough to keep me from eating my ass off! This issue brings me to a few things I have been pondering:

#1: Why is it that I can eat fairly healthy all week long and the scale won't budge but then I eat like crap on the weekend and lose 2lbs????? I don't understand that. I thought if you follow the rules of nature/science/body that there's a formula to weight loss. (burn more calories than you consume +exercise=weight loss!) Right? Well my formula is outta freakin wack or something. I ate decent all last week and barely lost a couple ounces, then I eat taco bell and fried food on Saturday and weigh the next day and lost 1.5lbs!!! WTF???? So trying to keep with the trend I eat some "not so great" foods the next day too and what happens???? I gain 2lbs!!! DAMN there is no winnning! What's up with that?

#2: How did I not get the size of a house before the band? I have figured up the math and it doesn't make since that I maintained my weight for so long and didn't gain tons of pounds constantly. I mean how was I able to consume like 3000-4000 calories a day including sodas, candy, chips, etc etc etc and NEVER exercise and not gain weight every day??? Now it's like I can literally gain a more than 1lb a day if I don't watch what I eat and exercise but back then I didn't give a hoot and could eat like crap for months and not gain a pound. HOW????? Can someone please explain this to me???

Any answers to these baffling questions are appreciated! Thanks!

Also I got my belly button repierced on Sunday now that my stomach is semi-smaller. I have had it done twice before and took it out because I felt I was getting too big for it. Hopefully this time it will last.