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Couldn't really think of a clever title post. I feel kinda blah today. I wasn't going to post today because I am in one of "those" moods. You know the "life sucks giant ass right now" moods? Yes Allan, I saw your post about not bitching about stupid things with all of the awful photos like the little boy with half of his head blown off. So no making me feel guilty for complaining please!

I don't actually have much to say but I figured I'd write something anyway since I never post on the weekend and won't post again until probably Monday.

So on the weight loss front: I have decided to discontinue my Click shakes for a while. I have been reading up on the effects of caffeine on weight loss and it describes my situation fairly accurately. I read one passage that said sudden use of weight loss products containing caffeine may yield rapid weight loss temporarily but once your body adjusts to it your losses may stall/plateau. The suggestive solution was to discontinue all caffeinated products and see if you start losing again. This really makes sense to me because I have never been much on sodas or coffee at all. So I think the 10 lbs I lost in the first week of using Click as meal replacements helped me lose quickly but now I am just plain stuck in limbo. I am hovering between 177 and 179 and the scale just will not move no matter how little or how much I eat.

I know my body responds best to high protein, low carb because of my PCOS and insulin resistance. I have attempted it before and failed because I was just never in the right mindset. I didn't want it bad enough then. But I have doing fairly well watching my calories and I think I have some control now. So I am going to see if this may be my solution and maybe the losses will start up again. Sure would be nice!

The disheartening thoughts every time I get on the scale and see no losses really make me cave when it comes to my food choices. I get the point where I am like well if trying my best isn't working then what's the point in not eating the way I am used to if nothing comes of it? That's when the old binge-eater comes out of me and takes over again. I know some of you in blogland have been having this very same issue lately. I have read several blogs over the last couple of days having issues with old habits. The holiday time doesn't help. Especially when you are watching everyone around you eat like frickin pigs and you are supposed to nibble on carrotts and shit.

So I am going to be completely honest here (please don't throw stones bcuz I am a work in progress):

Breakfast: 2 tbsp of gourmet trail mix
Lunch: about 3 slices of a small personal pan spinach alfredo pizza at a local Italian restaurant. I know it was high calorie but I must say this was the best damn pizza I have ever had in my life. It was pure heaven. I wasn't expecting it to be soooo delicious. I'm not a big pizza fan either.
Snack: none
Dinner: Going to eat at Cheddar's. Not sure what. I was thinking maybe potato soup or something light. I looked at the menu online and there's some awesome looking salads. But honestly I am getting burned out on salads. I don't like lettuce all that much and although it doesn't get stuck for me very often it doesn't feel so great going down either. We'll see....

As soon as I throw together a low carb menu and grocery list I am jumping on it. I hope it kick starts something in this damn body. I am sick of stalling.

Well that's all I have for today kiddos! Have a good weekend!