Ok. So as you can see from my hostile title I am not in the best of moods. I have been busting my ass, watching my calories, working out every day, and basically reliving the pre-op diet all over again. I knew this would happen...I knew it! I get to the 170's again FINALLY and then eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerkkkkk (screeching brakes sound). It stops. The weight loss stops. According to my calorie app on my phone I should be losing about 7oz a day with how many and what kind of calories I have been eating as well as the exercise I have been doing and WTF???
First yesterday morning I weighed and gained 6oz and so I was EXTRA strict yesterday and kept my carbs super low and only had about 950 calories and only lost 2oz as of this morning!!!! WTH?????????????
I have processed the thoughts that the weight gain and tiny loss could be blamed on my sudden rejuvenation of exercise. I realize that gaining muscle can lead to a small gain or delay big losses but DAMN IT! Why? I know I shouldn't be obsessed with the number on the scale as long as I see I am getting smaller but it pisses me off. I don't remember having such small losses before on the pre-op diet but I wasn't working out that time either. I hate to be such a damn whiner right now but I can't help it. Little problems/adjustments like this are what cause me to self-sabotage. If I do very well and then all of sudden I stop seeing those same results it makes me wanna give up sooo easily. It just makes me feel like no matter what I do, it's not going to work but for a second. IT SUCKS FREAKIN ASS!
Also, I am worried that I am not getting enough calories in. According to my app for my age, height, and weight I should consume 1150 calories a day to lose 2lbs a week. But I can't seem to fit that much in without adding bad foods. I know alot of you eat less than that and do fine but I am worried I might ruin my metabolism. So you would think if I am eating even less than the 1150 I would lose quicker but NOPE! Not this body here damn it! It's going to be stubborn. I am going to hang with it though. I have to. I am not giving up so easily this time even if I am a little bummed that I had such a small loss the last 2 days. My main motivation is to lose 5 more pounds to get into that new dress I told you about.....the one for my business banquet next weekend! I hope I can get there in a week and a half.
Do you think I should lay off exercise for a while until I lose more??? I don't know what is right. Some people tell me not to worry about exercise until I get close to goal and then just start toning up. And then others tell me I should exercise while losing so that I build my metabolism and keep from becoming flabby and loose skinned. Shit, I don't know what to think. I hate how obsessed I am with all of this.
On a happier note, I got my Christmas tree up last night and am going shopping today on my lunch for more decorations for home. My partner in crime (Jessica) and I have been decorating our department for special holidays and seasons and we have drawers full of decorations now. We put up our Christmas stuff on Monday and it looks great back here. Very festive. Here is a photo of my tree at home. I don't like full sized trees because I don't have the room for them and this is perfect us! Every year at our banquet we get an ornament for Chistmas and they are very nice and each has a different theme and story attached to it. They are collectibles. I have will get my 5th one at this year's banquet. I have my other 4 on the tree.
Anyway that's all I have for today. Hopefully I will see a bigger loss in the morning and perk up a bit.
Question of the day: Where does the weight go overnight?????