Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Riddle me this, Batman...

Holy Toledo!!!! Ok...I realize that at this point I should only be a able to eat like what, a cup of food??? Right? Ok I get the whole bandster hell thing but it is still soooo very discouraging to know that I can still eat like King Kong and it's freaking me the hell out! So this is what I had for lunch today...
Minus the drink, oh and only about 10 times that size!!!!!!!!!!! And still managed to scarf down like 5 bites of Mary's baked potato! WTF???? How is this possible? I mean dang there is 4 cc's in there right now! Has my band totally slipped and my stoma is like huge now or what? I just can't for the life of me seem to figure out how all this food fits easily through the hole in there! No problem, adios, buh-bye you giant mound of food cuz I am eating you! No stuck no problem! Please, Lord, let the fill on Friday do something!!!! Oh and then I thought about that too today that this is upcoming appt on Friday is not technically a "fill appt" it is a post op follow up. So what if the doc won't give me a fill???? Surely when I tell him I can eat all of pizza hut and still have room for a cookie he will feel for me and say yes, dear, a fill, coming right up! Right? Won't he? I don't know I am in la la land right now. I just hope I don't fail myself! Does that make sense? I must sound like one flew over the coo coo's nest right now. Ah well just thought I'd throw down some frustration AGAIN today! Have a good day everyone!

4 comments:

  1. I'm sure if you talk to the doc he will be receptive. My doc said that a lot of times your stomach just gets used to the size and stretches a little, thats why its different for each person. Hope you get your fill!

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  2. is this your 1st post op appt? if it is you probably won't get a fill...my 1st fill is also on friday.
    i hope that things get better for you! :-)

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  3. We've all been there. It sucks.
    I hope you can get a fill on Friday. I know that I wouldn't tell my Dr. I was eating Pizza Hut though! Just tell him that you feel like you are hungry a lot and that it takes more than a cup of food.
    You will get there though - it just takes a while.

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  4. Hang in there Jess....I'm sure you'll get a fill and get back on track!

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